I now work at a place, which requires me to wear a red apron which reads "Nutty Dorothy" stitched on the front. I guess I'll get to keep it after I quit, which will be quite awesome. I like my job; it provides me with access to as much candy and chocolate and ice cream as I  could possibly desire. This will be the yummiest job ever.

Summer school starts today. From what I've heard through the grape-vine there is going to be a lot of good people in the class... which always makes classes better. I'm also beginning a research project on the impact of altered states of consciousness (sp. various forms of meditaion) on neurological activity and mental health. I'm also in the process of beginning a friendship with a neuroscience and mathematics MA, who has a special interest in consciousness and phil. of mind. This is going to be a hectic, but quite productive summer. I feel as though I'm at the threshold of my sanity, while on the other side of this threshold is my future.

Many new persons are entering my life at the onset of my dearest's absence. Its strange to have so much potential at your doorstep without that sturdy rock by your side. With the absence of the one whom I identify with most, I am free-falling into the summer of change. For once, I feel as though this change is within my grasp, and within my control. For once I don't fear the changes occurring. I don't weep for the past, for the memories i have, for those unspoken words in the morning. for all the conversations i had with no one other than the no-thingness. The ground is under my feet, each step feels much more study and stable.

this is me, becoming.